heaven knows i'm miserable now
The absence of control had been the true horror, the thing she couldn't shake. She had felt that fizzy sensation in her brain, like someone had poured a soda pop into her skull, and that abominable surrender of control, stretching thinner and thinner until it pulled apart, as if her will had been made of taffy. Raiden had been strong enough to fight her off, but what if he wasn't?